To Grandma's House, We Went!

Okay, so this is the second week of our spring break and the first part of this week wasn't so great. My mom, my sisters, my aunt and I went up to my Grandma's house, in Terrace, for a few days and while we were up there we went shopping. We spent several hours in a couple stores but when we went into a particular store named Trigo's, I was truly happy to be shopping! It was like a store created just for me! I loved it there but everything was pretty expensive so my mom wasn't exactly prepared to get us anything. I found the cutest bathing suit ever and I tried it on and it fit just right! I asked my mom if I could get it and she said we were leaving but we could come back later. We ended up not going back and I didn't get anything that day.Later that night, my mom came into my room asking if I was alright and I said yes. This is how the rest of the conversation went:
"Are you sure because you seemed a bit perturbed?"
"Ummm thanks but I'm fine."
"Are you sad that you didn't get anything?"
(I kinda was) "Noooo."
"You know I didn't get you that bathing suit because I though it wasn't very flattering on you, right?"
(I was just about to cry at that point) "Umm thanks again, Mum."
"Are you sure you're okay?" (She was getting up to leave.)
(Nope!)"Yeah!"
I was pretty much fine up until that point but my mom saying that the bathing suit didn't look good on me, crushed me. I know I'm not exactly skinny (I'm on the chubbier side) and it's hard to find bathing suits that look good on me and all I want is to be slim! After she left, (I know it might sound like I'm a baby but I'm not) I cried for a while. It hurt! It was like the one bathing suit in the entire store that I thought looked good on me and my mom tells me "It wasn't very flattering on me!" hurt! I told my friend about this but she didn't seem upset about it at all. She told me her mom tells her that stuff a lot but that didn't comfort me at all! I bet every body has had at least one moment in their life when somebody has called them fat but it might have been a joke. But whether it was a joke or not, it can really hurt somebody! So maybe the next time you're about to call somebody fat (even if you don't mean it) think about this post!
~Wannabe

Skiing!

So this week was spring break and my family and some friends went and stayed at a condo and went skiing for a few days. I've been skiing since I was like 4 but I'm not super good. My friend, Lauren, on the other hand is an amazing skier. She can do moguls, steep slopes, trees, jumps and every black diamond on the mountain! I always feel really slow when I'm skiing with her family because they are so much better than I am. I'm just trying to keep up and I never think about what happens if I go to fast and fall head over heels! I just can't keep up and they get annoyed when I want to do easy runs like greens. I've always wanted (there's that word again) to be able to ski with them without making a fool of myself. I'll never be up to speed with them! Sorry, that was lame but I really never will be able to catch them when I ski!

~Wannabe

My Friends

So everybody has them or at least should have them: Friends! I have wonderful friends that I care about dearly but I always feel so insignificant to them. I have three really, really good friends and we've been friends since kindergarten. We were almost always the smartest people in our class and we all play soccer and we are very good at it. My good friend, Linda, is probably the smartest out of all of us except she isn't very outgoing or anything like that. My other friend, Anna, is very smart as well and she is an amazing soccer player. My best friend, Mandy, is such a good soccer player and she is super smart and she is very sweet and people seem to like her very easily. I envy Mandy the most though because she is almost perfect in everything she does and I don't know how she does it. Also, guys tend to like her more and I think every guy I've ever liked, has liked Mandy or still likes her. Anna is a great friend but lately we've been growing distant (even though we're in the same class) because she has a bunch of new friends and so does Linda. Mandy and I still eat lunch together but she is in a different class and has new friends too. I shouldn't be so jealous of them but I am and compared to them, I feel so stupid and bad at soccer and at making friends and everything else and I just want to be like them!

~Wannabe

Hi World!

Hi. I just started this blog. It's all about how I am trying to find myself. It's true! All of it is! I'm always trying to be someone else. I don't know why. Maybe I think they'll like me better if I do. I don't know! Anyway just saying hi and hopeful some of you will know what I'm going through and can help me!

~Wannabe