Unlovable?

My friend, Danielle, got asked out a couple days ago by a guy she really liked. I was really happy for her and I'm already kinda meddling in their relationship (i.e. dragging Danielle to to her bf so they they can talk, etc. (nothing horrible like trying break them up or anything like that!)). Actually, as it turns out, Danielle's boyfriend, Leo, is best friends with Nate. So three of my closest friends (Mandy, Tory and now Danielle) have boyfriends which kinda leaves me and Chloe, my other friend. Oh and I just learned today that my sister got asked out too. I would have liked to have known, even though it's not really my business. It's like everybody has a boyfriend now! A thought that kept popping up in my head all day was Am I unlovable? Is there no guy out there that likes me? I know it sounds pathetic and stuff because I'm in grade 8 but I feel almost left out kinda and left behind and alone. My two BFFs have boyfriends and so do other close friends and my sister but I'm the odd one out. As I'm writing this,  I've been thinking about reasons why any guy might like me but really all I've been around guys is obnoxious and a jerk or really stupid. Hopefully I do have a 'soul-mate' out there but if not, than that really sucks.
~Wannabe

Build a bridge and get over it

You know, after everything that happened last year, I really need to get over some things. I keep holding on to them because I don't want to change the way I feel. First, I need to let go of the fact that, yes, Mandy has new friends, like Gail and Cate, and a boyfriend, Nate, but she is making more of an effort I guess to hang out with me but she still doesn't always include me. I should just be grateful for the fact she doesn't hate me. I need to get over the fact that she hurt me last year but now she is sorry and also has forgiven me. Second, I need to get over the idea that I don't have any friends because I actually do but I didn't acknowledge the fact that I did! I still have Teresa and Ginny and Evangeline and Megan (who, thank God!, doesn't hate me) and I am quite able to make new friends so I shouldn't be moping around around, thinking I'm a loner. And finally, I need to get over Dave. Why? Because I doubt he'll ever like me and I really just want to be friends with him. Liking him isn't getting me anywhere so I guess I'll just leave it at that. That's really all I want now, to be friends with him. Anyway, I hope this year is better than the last and I enjoy it!
~Wannabe

School

So apparently, in my homeroom, none of my friends are in my class. In every other class though, except Tech. Ed. (unfortunate that I got that) I have at least one or two friends which is extremely relieving because I don't want to be alone. Teresa and I hang out a lot and even Mandy comes and hugs me every once and awhile though she spends most of her time with Gail and Cate. What sucks the most though is that I got a cold two days into school! So, now, I blow my nose a lot, cough and talk in a strange voice because my throat hurts! Oh well. I hope school gets better and I can get some new friends or maybe keep my old ones or something like that. The start of school is always the worst so I'm hopeful, I'm hopeful. I'll keep you posted on the things happening! (don't forget to check out my other blog whathappenswhenblog.blogspot.com !)
~Wannabe