Forget me not

As you know, if you've been following my blog, many of my friends have left me behind. I don't know why they did it, maybe my fault, maybe theirs, i don't know. I know I have Jesus to lean on but I guess it ain't the same as a human best friend. I have faith that God will send me the right person to fill that space in my life.
What I've probably always wanted, sometimes without knowing, is that I just want to fit in and be one in the group, whatever it may be. That's why I think I was so attached to my former friends, because with them I felt safety and comfort. Now that they're gone, I have to step outside my comfort zone, outside my bubble of safety, and find some one to lean on and to be leaned on, some one I can trust, I know will always be there. I need someone who will hold my hand and help me get through whatever the heck is going on in my crap of a life. The only thing I would like is that my former friends would not forget me. That they won't forget the marks, however small, I made on their lives. I love them all dearly and I hope they find what they're looking for in a friend they didn't find in me!

p.s. anybody who would like to pray for me, about my friend problem, it would be much appreciated!
~Wannabe