Right back to the start

It's crazy how things come full circle sometimes.
The people who I thought were my friends started blocking me out, ignoring me, leaving me behind. It took me too long to realise that it wasn't just a phase, that they didn't want me to be their friend. It hurt a lot. I will admit I cried myself to sleep a couple times. It stings when I see pictures of them hanging out and having fun or when I had to walk past them gossiping in the hallways. I just thought I was done with all that crap back in middle school.
After my "friends" rejected me, I was lost for awhile, slowly drifting, trying to find someone, something to hold on to. Eventually, the nicest, sweetest person I've probably ever met let me in to her life, into her circle. It took a little bit but soon I had friends again. They're good, kind people that accepted me for me.
Now that we've gotten to know each other better, I'm scared they'll start wondering why they even were friends with me in the first place. Once the cracks start to form, it's not like I can just put tape over them and hope they'll go away. These people mean the world to me and I don't think I'll be able to handle it if they leave me behind too.
~Wannabe